I would like to say I've reached the conclusion that I am completely insane and cannot trust myself. But if that is true, then any conclusion I make is insane and cannot be trusted. So I can't conclude that; it's a paradox. The current idea I have in my head is that, instead of constantly doubting my decisions, I need to pick something and complete it regardless of how I begin to evaluate it later. Time only allows for my insane and untrustworthy mind to make judgements about whether I should or should not complete the thing. But that idea may also be insane and untrustworthy. There it is again. I am stuck. I'm not sure how things got this bad in the first place. Or maybe I know exactly how they got this bad. There it is again. So what do I do? Well, the good news is that something being untrustworthy does not neccesarily mean it is false. Well... now that I think about it, that would actually be the preferable situation: If I knew my conclusions were false, I could conclude that I am completely insane and cannot be trusted, which would mean that I am NOT completely insane and trustworthy (since my conclusions are false). It would be a proof by contradiction. But I don't know if my conclusions are false. They may be true sometimes. And even if they were always false, I could also conclude that I am sane and trustworthy, which would make me insane and UNtrustworthy. So in the end, it does not make a difference. I've spent all this time thinking and gotten nowhere with it.